Premonitions

Do you believe in premonitions? I never really did but when your child that does not speak well tells you to stay home then the words "Mommy die, why? Mommy die, why?Mommy stay please!" you stay home! 



I was getting ready this evening to venture out. The  ground and roads are covered in snow and ice. I just needed to run to the store and get some dish soap. I was walking around the house finding my shoes and Megyn grabs my legs and looks up at me and says "stay momma, stay momma, no go, please". I think nothing of it and pry her off my leg. 

As I am getting ready to leave she looks at me and says "Mommy die, why? Mommy die, why? Mommy stay please!" I say "baby what's the matter" she replies "mommy no die please." Ugh ... that stuck right through my heart. I ask her if I go am I going to die if I go bye-bye and she says "yes, momma why die".  I tell her I am staying home and she grabs me jumping up and down cheering. 

I am not sure what that was but it scared me and her bad enough that I stayed at home. I sit here typing this wondering what just happened. Was it a premonition? What ever it was I listened! 

Mommy loves you Squishy Bear! 

XOXOX

So many updates...

Megyn's Feet ... 
It has been quite some time that I have update Megyn's blog. She has been doing great. She continues to walk with little difficulty. She has a slight turn in her right foot. She has worn AFO's for a while now and will need to go back to the doctor for a reevaluation.

The last time I spoke to Dr. Willits he wanted to do another surgery on Megyn's feet. He wanted to take the tendon on top, cut it and relocate it to the fourth toe. He said it would correct the inward turn she is having. Craig and I are not sure we are ready for that and have waited about 6 months to see if the problem would correct on its own.

We have an appointment during Spring Break to discuss her feet and options to help the inward turn. I worry as she ages her feet will give her problems and she will wonder why we didn't do something about them ... well more for them.

Have we done enough? Only time will tell.

School ... 
Megyn has started Headtstart this year. She still wasn't talking so with much prayer and consideration she was placed on an IEP for speech services. She receives 40 minutes a week and has flourished. She had a vocabulary of about 20 -30 words when she started. She now talks sentences. She loves to talk and share her new words with us.

She should start Pre-K next year. I am contemplating about her being in my room. I may be asking for it or it could go great!


Megyn now loves to put on mommy's boots ... isn't she cute!!!

Megyn's Surgeries

We found a new doctor. His name is Dr. Willits ... HE IS AMAZING!!! He said that Megyn needed a surgery for both feet. LETS HOPE THEY WORKED THIS TIME.

Megyn underwent surgery on July 16th and July 25th. We did stay over night for pain management.

July 16th was surgery for the right foot. The surgery took about 3 1/2 hours and afterwards she was in so much pain. She didn't want to eat or drink. Her kidneys weren't working either. She just cried and wanted her momma. She finally, after 32 hours, used the bathroom and they allowed us to come home. She also ate some McDonald's fries. Once we got home she started drinking and ate a bit more. On Friday though, her sisters came home and she cheered right up. She really loves them. She started learned to crawl around and felt so much better. Craig and I felt awful about having to do the surgery on the left foot.

July 25th, Megyn had surgery on her left foot. The surgery took about 2 1/2 hours and Dr. Willits was pleased with how the right foot already looked after only a week. Megyn drank while in recovery and seemed to handle the pain some much better this time. The Saint Francis Children's Hospital did a great job at helping manage Megyn's pain this time. They were so helpful and kind. We went home the next day about 1:30 and Megyn already wanted to play. She ate a ton and hasn't really complained much of pain. She is only in pain when she moves a lot or when she wakes up.

She is back to being our Squishy Bear. She is learning to crawl around and tell her sisters where to take her and what she wants to do.


Her is Megyns "dog" .... the doctor put a mask, hair net and cast on him. 7/16/12

 Megyn in her room after surgery ... playing with the horse that Heather Bowman brought her. 7/16/12

 Megyn taking a ride in the wagon waiting to go in to surgery on 7/16/ 12

"Dog" again 7/16/12 

   

 Megyn in recovery ... 7/16/12

We go back September 4th ... I will let you all know how that goes.  

SQUISHY  aka Megyn ~ 6/11/12

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY MEGYN!!!! 

Reflecting on what has gone on these past two years is very overwhelming to me. We have been through so much with her and are not done, by a long shot! Look at those little feet in the picture, you can see the club feet still. WE ARE GOING TO FIX IT THOUGHT!!! Megyn has been in cast a total of 18 months, had 3 sets of AFO's, 1 set of night time shoes and has had 1 surgery on both her feet. We are about to undergo a surgery for the right foot on July 16, 2012 and one for the left on July 25, 2012. She has a long road ahead of her but not a long as it was just two short years ago. My heart still breaks when I look at her and feel like I had a part in doing this to her. I still feel like something I took somewhere along the way, of my pregnancy, caused it. I hate that we have to do more surgeries and that she will be in a wheel chair and have to learn to walk again! But ... I know this is what we need and God sent us to Dr. Willits, he is an amazing doctor.  I know God is wonderful and has done such great things for our Megyn so far!!! He will continue to show his greatness and GOD WILL SHOW THAT HE IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!! 

Please continue to pray with us for healing. 

 I will post about her surgery as soon as I get home and get her situated!  

Wow, It has been so long since I have posted on here. Life has flown by, almost 1 year. We now have a 2 year old Squishy. She is so happy and adorable. We are all so in love with her and anyone that meets her feels the same way.

We continue to work on her feet. We are now seeing a new doctor. I'd like to say that Dr. Capehart was no providing the care that Megyn needed. I have been noticing that Megyn walks almost on top of her right foot and struggles more and more each day. She is in pain and it is noticeable when watching her. Watching her sweet face and seeing her not be able to do what she wants to do hurt us and made us want more for her. We searched after more casting for the answers. Then it came (Thank you Mr. Riley) from a friend.

Dr. Willits is her new doctor. He is a St. Francis doctor as well. He specializes in club feet. Megyn's appointment was yesterday, 6-7-12 and we had answers. He asked me what we had done and then told me what he wanted to do. He wanted to do two surgeries in ten days. The first will be performed on July 16, 2012 on the right foot. The second will be July 25, 2012 on the left foot. The first surgery will take up to five hours. The surgery on the right foot will have tendon releases and one to two pins put in her foot. There are more thing being done but I can't recall all of it. The second surgery will be on the left foot with tendon releases. There will be three incisions on both feet.

I will update after the surgery on July 16th. We ask that you pray for a fast recovery and a less pain as possible.

THANK YOU ALL!!!

NEW AFO's

Well, we went today after being in one cast (just on the right leg for two weeks) and decided we would order AFO's for Megyn and this time put a twister cable on them so her leg will quit turning in when she stands.

She is wanting to walk and with this I am hoping she will be able to soon.

I will keep you all posted.

THIS IS WHAT IT WILL LOOK LIKE!

One Year Ago Today

Wow ... I still remember the day I gave birth ... It was such a hard time for me but now we have come so far.

Megyn (Squishy, Faith or Bear) has grown so much. Her little feet are doing better but we still have many days ahead of us. We have ordered new AFO's, which she can take off now and we ordered a BB brace for her to wear and SHE HATES IT.

Our last appointment on 5/16/11, Dr. Capehart said we are going to recast her. Please pray that this process doesn't hurt her as bad as the last times but none the less I know it will make her mad. She has such a strong personality and will not like not being able to stand.

Yes, Megyn can stand but when she does she stands on her ankles. OUCH, IS RIGHT ... it hurts her and I see the drive in her to want to walk. I am not sure where we go from here but we may get a second opinion after the cast are taken off. Her little feet always seem to turn after we take anything off and I fear we are going to need a surgery. I will let you all know as soon as I find out something.

Look how much she has changed in 1 year ...