Our First Visit ...

Our first visit was nerve racking. Were they going to cast her legs today? What are they going to say? Is she going to walk? Is it going to hurt her? I had so many questions and so much fear.

We went into our exam room and Dr. Capehart came in, looked at her and told us her tendons were very tight and that we would start casting that day (Monday, 6/14/10). He told us we would do a series of casts, changing them every week. Then at three month she would likely need a surgery to extend her heel bones. I just wanted to cry ... I don't want her to have surgery but if this is what needs to be done then we will do it.

After the casting and surgery she will then be put in braces up to possibly the age of five. Her calf muscles will be smaller than most but she should be able to walk with the correct interventions. We were then taken into the casting room. The casting takes two people to do it correctly. They stretched her ankles and held them in place and casted them in plaster cast. They said it was one of the worst cases because it affects her feet and ankles. They are going to start on her ankles then do the feet and the bend. She screamed and cried the whole time. I cried and wanted it stopped but had to tell myself that this is for the best and will help her in the long run. She will not be able to walk with out this correction and this is the only way to fix it. She is in some discomfort but not enough to keep her up at nights. I am now excited to see what they look like on Monday and how much they have corrected.

I have to remind myself and Craig (my husband) has to remind me we will not see a huge difference right away. Also, we still don't know if she will walk until she starts trying. But, today she rolled over twice from belly to back, which shows me how strong she is and that she will do this and we will never know any difference when she is older.

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It's funny we named our daughter Megyn "FAITH". Why did I seem to lose my faith in God when this happened? Why did I not trust that God would take care of Megyn and assure that with time she will walk? Faith seems to be the first thing to go. I do have faith I just need to be reminded of God's promises and that he loves us and will never leave us.

He hasn't left us and shows me everyday he love me. Just looking into my daughters eyes I feel this love. What once felt like a curse feels like a blessing now. I feel blessed that God loves and trust my husband and I enough to trust us with this little angle to take care of. He knew my husband and I would care for her and make sure she would walk in due time! :)